Sometimes being a full-time mum has its challenges. Being on constant call can be stressful. Wanting to take photographs while the light is doing exciting things on the sea, while you push your child repeatedly on a playground swing, can be excruciating to say the least. Yesterday, I proposed a family day out and took my camera and tripod as part of my current photographic project. Despite saying to myself that I must spend time with my family, I spent at least half an hour feeling miserable as the light slowly vanished from the waves. I found a gap and march grumpily to the beach with my tripod and camera. The next 15 minutes I took some of the worst images I have ever taken. Boring, flat, dull, uninspired. A bit like the beach I was standing on.
I took a breathe, changed focus, took a few shots of beach houses. Then decided to call it a day. Family must come first. As I was walking to the playground I saw this boat zoom in, I quickly took the shot. It was my favourite image of the day, mostly for its moodiness and the yellow colour of the boat injects just a bit of life into the shot.
I learnt a few things yesterday. Family is what is important, most important. Sometimes you have to just watch the beauty before you and thank God that you can experience something so lovely, even without a camera. Photography is more about headspace than completing a project. It is about recognising and revelling in the world around us. Grumpy people can’t be easily creative. Motherhood sometimes involves sacrifice. Yellow boats can pop out of nowhere and make your day!